im missing my mum already.. she left for perth last nite,wit my lil bro.. gosh,only god knows how worried i am about her..

she is so fragile these days,feel like protecting and shutting the world from her..i yearn to tell her that things will be alright for me when she is with my sis in perth,but i cant..stupid of me..i shud have just made her comfortable by saying so..

she will only be back after 3 weeks,…cant wait till then..even my dad cant wait that long,so he is going during the Christmas holiday,…

life is not going on as how i want it to be..too many things in my head, feel like the world is spinning and leaving me alone in deserted land…

it must be the durians, but then again i only felt better after having those, i don’t know…its just not the right time for mood swing..

lots of work left unattended, competition is around the corner, hands tight, donno how i will survive this splash of depression in me…

hope things will be fine at the end of the day…

i was just so tired doing many things at a time that i completely got tired and was hoping to get some rest.. that fine moment came during the sem break.. i went back the same day i finished my last paper, my mum came and picked me up. since i set my foot in my house, i have ignored all unnecessary phone calls or messages and prepared for my holiday. i left my phone in the house with my dad and went for a nice holiday at perth, staying at my sisters’s place. it was a  nice getaway after the  hustle and bustle of the so called uni and office life. as soon as i came back, i was shocked to see the amount of calls and messages in my phone, that i was glad i didn’t take it along with me during the holidays. i would assume that i actually went into hiding, and for a spur moment, i felt like i would want to remain in that way, and not see the lights outside my cave. then again, i wanted to know what is happening outside the cave, so i assured myself that everything would be fine, and stepped out of the cave.. it was a nice feeling getting back on my feet. i finally experienced the holiday that i wanted, and now im all prepared to help my mum in things that she wants me to do. though im all back and ready to do some pending stuffs, i still enjoy the moment of being alone for a moment..

for now, im happy hiding from the world..

as ausual, zati will buy Fruit Tree Fresh Apple and Aloe Vera.. she will get the bottled one which is only 250 ml .. it costs her around Rm 1.80.. while she gets the bottle one, i will go n get the 1 litre box which only costs rm 4.60.. some might say why so much, but for me its normal..i will drink from the box for the whole day… in other words, it will last me for about 3 hours..

the same thing is happening now while im writing this.. i just went down and got myself the 1 Litre box drink while zati told me to get her the bottle one. she just asked me to add drinks in her bottle coz hers is finished… herm..i must teach this girl how to be more smart and save money.. anyhow, i still love her for who or how she is..

can’t wait for the movie to be out… reserved my ticket for thursday show..wat a mistake,should have reserved for tuesday instead..all the tickets for tuesday show is fully booked..hermm….

i have this special interest for Transformers since small, not because it just came out and getting all excited as the teenagers this days.. just hate to see the girls getting all excited and happy and looking so interested for something that they don’t know anything about.. my parents used to buy for me the robots when i was really small,around 3 years of age.. i don’t recall having neither barbie doll nor soft toys.. my playmate and toys have always been cars, robots, and gadgets (be it the fake or real one)…

i still have the Transformers robot that my parents bought for me, as well as the small cars… my brother got really interested with it, so my mum got him one too..

basically, what im trying to say is this, I am the real fan of Transformers, why  the hell some idiots who doesn’t know anything bout it can actually get the ticket for the premier, n i don’t?????….

i know im being emotional for some stupid thing, but it matters to me.. sad…

the time shows that its 2.40 am now.. i cant sleep,still surfing the net.. finished studying 6 chapters..3 more chapters to go.. im really tired, sometimes i wish this is my last sem, sometimes i hope i can stay here longer.. donno lar.. hurmmm

i seriously miss my girlfriends… i mean really miss them with all my heart.. let me go in order from time frame k..

my wonderful elder sista.. Jessimah…she is the best sis n girlfriend one can have…

MCIIUM…(It sounds better like dis rather than CFS..)

AiSHah (icez), BaLQis (Qisses), NuRHanIS (ANnys), SiTI NorhazWAnI (wANI), nURhAZwani (WanEQ), RudIana (Ana), NuRUL sAKINAh (Nurul/skin) – These people were my classmates…

EzrIN (ez), PuTeri Nurul jehan (put), Zati HAmdAN (zati)… these people were from MEDeC (Matriculation English Debating Club)

Syuhada (syu), Sofea (sofea), Liana (Li), Liyana (LiyANA), nABIlAh Ulfah (Ulfah), Fairuz (fairuz)… my Dearest Gombak MET FrIENDS…

Izza ( one of my besties…i just love her spirit in life)…

AmeZAKAmilla (ameza), iJan.. People That i met when i attended a conFerence..

I love all of u guys… muah2… xoxoxox

i know its kind of weird to suddenly say this out, but i miss u guys every single dAy in my life(its like dis coz im stuck here..huhu..kidding)… but i should let u guys know, so this is the way…

it was a nice end for my day today… i n zati went to this restaurant called Kabul at Sooka Sentral.. we left the hostel around 7 pm, rushing to the bus stop, ended up taking a cab with 2 other sisters who were late for their movie screening.. d pakcik taxi was like : pergi mana ni?..dah nak maghrib2 ni:… we just answered that we need to go out,got hal penting..haha,..

the main reason both of us wanted to go out was because we just can’t stand studying in our room any longer.. kinda feel packed n stuffy.. so, we brought our book, n dress up well (since zati said i look so selekeh,n i said the same thing back to her)… i even brought my heels, with the hope i will look nicer,n not selekeh..

we went into the restaurant, i guess the guy knows already that we will order really a lot, coz he was smiling all the way till we sat.. (nway, the first time i ate thre was with zati n fairuz)..miss her.. back to the story, i ordered mango lassi n lamb kebab, n zati ordered plain lassi n mutton briyani.. the food was really2 good..

we didn’t really finish our food, too full… not really full, but full for the main course..i kept some space in my stomach for dessert, so as zati. i ordered gullab jamoon, n zati ordered kulfi.. we shared the dessert.. wow, i never really felt so close with zati like how i did today.. maybe i should expand my horizon of friends and accept more girls in my life..

the day ended in a real funny way..we took the cab back from the train station, but instead of stopping at the hostel, we stopped at the clinic..zati is having stomach ache..  i hope she gets well soon.. pray for her..amin.

im craving for cupcakes this time around.. really miss the times where my mum used to bake muffins and cakes of all flavours that i know exist in this world.. my all time fav would be her orange muffin and fruitcake.. tha taste can’t be defined by words.. if only she can still bake…hmmmm..

i went thru this blog of an old friend of mine, n she gave out recepies for cupcakes..guess that i will be baking some during the hols..

i was thinking this a few days ago, what if i start to bake cupcakes and sell it during festive season to my dad’s staff?..since they love to ask my dad to buy their cookies,im going to ask them to buy my cupcakes..

the first person other than my family to try these cupcakes would be zati..why?..coz she gives out honest opinion…nothing else..haha…

its a boring weekend.. had my arabic paper yesterday.. it was definitely a tough day for me yesterday. the TEMU officers denied me from doing my midterm, when i did not simply miss the paper.. i was in Arau when the sudents had their midterm.. after a ‘nice’ session of crying in front of the Deputy Dean, i finally got my chance to my midterm, then again, i can only do it after my final on friday.. it was kind of funny coz i was having my finals in the morning, and my midterm in the afternoon..

still got 1 more paper to go.. i need to score an A for that… though the madam is known to be the ‘killer lecturer’ for my course, but i find her really kind this semester.. maybe she has changed, or im just too used to see her like dat, that i can actually ignore nad think of it as kind..